Online:Belienne's Despair

Belienne's Despair
Location	West Weald
Race	Breton	Gender	Female
Reaction	Friendly

Belienne's Despair

Belienne's Despair is a facet of Belienne's personality that has taken a life of its own, after an experiment with Daedric mirror magic. She can be encountered near the river to the south of Skingrad.

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• Self-Preservation: Please add a description for this quest

Quest-Related Events

After you encounter Belienne chasing after her Fear, she asks you to help find the other Facets of her personality that got loose. She first points you in the direction of the nearby river to find Despair.

When you find her, she will be lamenting:

Belienne's Despair: "I wish the river would just carry me away."

Speak with Despair to see what you can do for her:

"If only I had the energy to drown myself. I can't even do that."

You must be Belienne's despair.

"Despair, sadness, depression. What does it matter? I don't have the strength to argue with you.
I hoped the river would calm me, but the flowing water just reminds me how stuck I am in this miserable life. Please, let me rot. It's all I'm good for."

Is there anything I can do to help?

"There's one thing that might lift my spirits. Whenever I was sad as a little girl, I'd collect pretty blue flowers by the river's edge to weave into a crown.
I saw the same blue flowers nearby, but I don't have the strength to gather them."

I will gather the flowers for you.

"That's too kind, really. Don't waste your time on me, I'm sure you have better things to do.
But if you insist, I suppose I'll still be here. The river is rising much more slowly than I thought it would."

Before finding the flowers you can ask her some questions:

Can I ask you some questions?

"Ugh, why do you insist on prolonging my suffering? I don't suppose I can stop you, though.
Ask your questions. I doubt my answers will make any difference to you."

What are you doing?

"What does it look like? I'm waiting here for the sweet embrace of death."

Why are you upset?

"You could never understand the deep well of sadness that lives inside me, spilling out in my tears. It's ineffable. An abyss so large, I fear it'll swallow me whole.
That is to say, I don't really know."

Once you have gathered the nearby river flowers you can return to Despair:

"The flowers by the river's edge are so pretty. Maybe my tears could help water them. Oh, but they're so far away."

I gathered the river flowers for you.

"You did that for me? Maybe there is still some kindness in the world.
Ah, these blooms are beautiful. The dark clouds in my mind are parting a little. I feel lighter."

Your primary self is looking for you.

"I know. I just haven't had the strength to return before now.
Maybe reuniting with her would be nice. Less lonely."

She understands you like no one else can.

"That's true. I've felt incomplete this whole time. I need her strength to help me shoulder the burden of my sorrows.
Thank you for your kindness, stranger. I'm ready to go home."

At this Belienne will have arrived and she talks to her Despair:

Belienne: "There you are, darling. Let me share your burdens."

Belienne Despair: "Please, I don't want to be alone anymore."

Belienne: "You won't be. Not ever again."

<Orange light appears in Belienne's hands and Despair rises in the air, surrounded by a warm light and disappers in sparks.>

Belienne: "Oh, I feel so heavy all of a sudden."